Explaining the Title

  I wanted to take a moment and explain my blog title.

  "May The Stars Shine Upon You" is a very special phrase to me. I lost my faith in the aftermath of my abuse. I was in an incredibly dark place, suicidal even. It felt like I could never breath enough air in, like my soul had been torn in two. One day, I lay on my bedroom floor, in this acute agony, crying. I looked out the window and something about the way the sunlight played through the trees caught me. It was as if those bright colored beams lifted the pain away. I hurt still but the agony was bearable again.

  It seemed a miracle to me. I was no less taken off guard the second it time it happened. I suffered abuse again at the hands of a romantic partner in my teens, and this time it was the stars that lifted the pain away. It was in that moment when the whole sky seemed beyond infinite, a great bowl above me, and the clear light of a million stars shined down. Again, the tears eased, the pain melted some. I had reprieve.

  I may not believe in any god, or pray to anything. But I have no doubt that something beyond me took pity on the girl so tiny and insignificant below that great expanse. I wish that those same stars would shine down upon any who read this, and do for you what they did for me. Life is still difficult at times and it still hurts but I can breath again.